Down

Lately, I felt a sense of sorrow. I think I know the reasons for it. There's just a reason. About Paul. I thought that we can still be attached despite of distance matter. It's really suffering when you can reach the highest point to happy-- ecstacy. Then, a few seconds later, you fell off to the ground. I hit the ground before, but I'm still not awake. I hate myself being like this. I'd decided to quit everything linked to bf matters. It'll come to me some day, I believe.

Studies Ahead

Lately, I had been very addicted to ICQ. I told myself to quit, but still I surrender to that tempting chatting website. I really hope that I spend my time wisely. Not to mess around with precious hours again. Studies..in my mind is the path to get closer to my dream, a golden ticket for higher educations. I do not look forward to be a doctor, nurse, or lawyer or other professionals. Fashion designer is my ultimate career. I have a great passion for art, designing, it will be a total waste if I quit by now. Although science stream has nothing to link with my future career, at least I do not waste my time by learning subjects that I do not like at all. I do like Biology and Chemistry when I was in Form 4 until now. So, I joined the stream and strived hard for my exams. I hope that I could win this SPM battle by my own effort, no matter what, because I had chosed this path. Myself. By using the remaining days, gambate and go for the very best result for SPM !

Mr. P

I met a guy for one month. We knew each other for a month and a day until today, 12 October 2009. That's means we knew each other by 11 September 2009. I really do not expect I can find my Mr. Right so fast. Although it's the right guy, he's staying in Singapore. Our problem is actually the distance, 5km as he said yesterday( we chatted yesterday). :) I felt really lucky to find a guy that likes me and at the same time, he likes me too. It's really hard. But both of us could manage to know each other. Is this what we call destiny? Hope that he's my destiny too. :P. We chat a lot of stuff by yesterday, not just the flirty chats. I feel that he's not the guy who play a fool with me, I really do hope that he's not. I really hope to know more about him, his family background, his blood type, if possible...everything about him. LOL. I know he's supporting Liverpool(red team), like sushi(as i do) and Christmas(as i do). We do share a lot of similarities (except we are not the same gender). He said this will never be the same. haha. Once again, I really do hope he's not a liar about every single thing he told me. At last, his name is Paul Dhillon.