The Guy that Should be Let Go

Today, by some chances, I'd managed to have a view of my past posts in my blog. I saw that I'm writing about my trip to Cameron Highland. A guy crossed in my mind, it's him, Nigel Chin. I think most of my friends would think Natalie, here you go, you're falling so easily for a guy again, so irresistable to the temptation? Lol. This is not the big deal. Some might say I'm ''flower-hearted'', but if you really know me well, you should know that I'm those people who don't give up so easily on relationship and I can be very loyal. There's the story goes. I'd got to know this guy in ICQ ( some might say it's dangerous again...XD . Somehow, nothing about this ham me yet.. Thank God ). We started chatting by July 2009..last year( I'm not sure about the months, it's around July/ August). Through the chatting, everything seems fine for me, just chatting, sharing the experiences of our lives, no big deal. By the starting, we are netfriends, then he became my brother and he dated me out, then the relationships started to go tangle like a telephone wire wiring all around you. It's in between friendship and love. Somehow, we still strive on the border line, friends to almost couple, couple to friends and back and forth like that. Two word to describe all this--- It's Complicated. Frankly speaking, most of the girls will not like this feeling like hanging in the atmosphere, the feeling of unstable and unsure, this feeling comes to me. Rising my inner bravery, I asked him a few times about this and tell him what I feel through sms. However, there's no exact answers from him. The story just goes on like that and I'd made up my mind to end all this up. Here, he told me he has a girlfriend. No big deal, I told him I'm leaving this relationship and for them to be together.. Just go ahead. Both of us struggle for the friendship. Now, everything ended just like that, no regrets, no harm, nothing. Life goes on. I have my lessons to attend, I have my assignments to do, I have my newly-met friends to chat with, I have my spacious library(resource centre) to hang around, the varieties in my life is colouring my life beautifully. No one should ever refrain me from my tiring yet enjoyable life of study. Bye to the guy that should be let go! Happy ending with your lovely girlfriend. X)

New

I'd got used to the word of new these couple of weeks. New learning spaces, new friends, new course I'm going on, new library, new knowledge and a new path of my life journey. I can say that almost everyday I'm meeting new faces around me, I have to meet my new lecturers everyday, everything is like ever-changing, spinning around like the Earth evolving around the Sun, and also as regular as the clockwise. There's only some of the constant thing on me that stays the same, I bet my gang or my close friends know what it is. I'm still eating bread on a daily-basis. Lol. One thing about the food is I like biscuits and bread, most of the confectionery stuff that will raise my appetite. Sweet food. XD. Back on the new life I'm having lately, I found that myself are getting closer to architecture as day passes by( If I'm going to measure the distance, or even the speed... Speed = Distance/ Time. Then I shall count it 100 metre per day). I really couldn't explain the invisible bond between architecture and me. Somehow, I feel like I'm not totally dislike about this subject, that's good. Maybe as I'm digging in deeper to the ground of the architecture, it will not be as boring as it should be. It's really like visualising what's in the mind to be built in the actual building.More or less, it will be similar to interior design as well. Architecture will be learning about the basic elements of a building, of a house for example. Soon, I'll be learning about the piping system, the ventilation system, electrical supply, and so on. By getting in touch with a little knowledge about architecture, we will actually know how houses are built, the materials, the important criterias the facilities. We are not anticipated to become well-known or top architects around the world, but at least we are well-informed by the knowledge of Architecture. I think I'll be meeting my old friends again-- Physics as I saw them in the Visual Dictionary of Architecture( I'll be getting them by tomorrow's lesson....
XD). I bought 3 books in a package, that costs me RM 380.00. I think the package is far more cheaper then the outside bookstores, I'd made the best decision, a Visual Dictionary of Architecture, the textbook for Architecture also,and a Drawing and Design book). As I mentioned earlier, everything will be new as my new journey leads me ahead. And also my newly-met friends and classmates in the campus. Thanks for the help, guys!

Study Journey~

I'd started my first lesson by yesterday. I shall call it a drawing class, I knew that this week is probably just the introduction of our course. The time where lecturers tell us the rules and regulations to be obeyed, lecturers even share the modules and scopes that they're going to teach. For me, this study journey will be different from the past education systems. No customized uniform to wear, no specific classroom like primary and secondary schools( teachers are not attending to our class, we are the one who is responsible to seek them for lessons, in this case, we are really grown ups, capable to be independent). What's that bothers me is that we don't have tuition classes to depend on... that's bad). That's why our lecturers are our ''dependable'' tuition teachers, and our new tuition centre is our resource centre(both library and the compute lab). The new fact: We Are On Our Own!!! About the reason why I'd decided to choose Foundation in Architecture & Built Environment, it's because I like interior designs much. After this one-year programme, I'll be pursuing a 3-year degree course of Interior Architecture. Why not fashion design, some might say. I had been informed of the competitive atmosphere in the fashion industry. I'm not ready for the peer pressure ahead in this field. We must really bend over backwards to achieve the fame in the circle of designers. There's so must to fight: fame, your label, even for the fabrics... By the way, I'd made up my mind for this journey,just enjoy because there'll be no turning back. Gambate, Natalie!

Working Days~

It's been a long time that I had not posted a new blog this few months, even I left my diary unwritten for a few weeks.(Sorry, Diary! :( ) I think I had a lot of things to share with, if I'm really going to write everything out about my working days. The unforgettable events:- My first day, Joey gave me a grey fleece jacket to be steamed. I thought that it was my first task, but then I only found out that it was my uniform. Somehow Joey had left, no longer working at Juicy Couture @ Pavilion, I heard that she's going o Singapore with her bf. In these days, I had got to know a few colleagues that had been good and friendly to me. Syamil, Mel, Grace, Hafiz, Louise, Nicole, Rebecca, Ivy, our newly part timer-- Hafizah, and also our ''mother'' Joanne. By the way, Hafiz and Grace had left too, I missed them. Hafiz is always the one who tricks everyone with his annoying jacket, and always did something disgusting. I remembered one day, Syamil's bracelet was quite unfit, then we decided to open the string, remove a few beads. Then, here came the disgusting part-- Hafiz put 2 round beads each on his nostrils... OMG..that's not the end yet, he exhaled forcefully, then the beads dropped from his nostrils... Three of us broke into laughter and felt totally annoyed. Hafiz, the 'red' lover and the first look of him surely will make most of the people think of the red Elmo. LOL. Next is about Grace, Sya always emphasised her nose was quite big and joked about it, even gave her the nickname-- Limkokwing's grand daughter. Haha. She is a friendly colleague indeed, we shared thoughts about her life and I shared mine with her. In these working days, more than 2 months, I got to know about the basics(rudiments) of fabric-- how to differentiate between terry cloth,velour cloth and fleece cloth. I think I had grown up this period of hardwork. At the beginning of this job, the first thing that came across my mind would have just be the factor-- $$$. However, when I had worked for quite sometime, I realised that the thing that keep you going on is not $$$ anymore, it's the friendship you had with your colleagues. Counting the days, it's about 1 month to go towards my last day... I will miss every part of my working days, I surely will miss my colleagues... @@

Money~

I think this will be my first time of so desperately want to earn money by my own. The main factor is that I had spent almost all of my CNY's angpaus for 3 bottles of facial products. When my friends got to know about this, they had much opinions about me. I really can't deny that I'm those girls who like aesthetics so much, until I don't care much about money, my personal finance. Honestly, there's not much money left by my side. I think money will not be enough when our desires are accumulating, maybe stop thinking of what we fancy of, steer away those thoughts of lavish lifestyles. Then, a quote came across my mind by this few seconds--- No money, No talk. In this material world which full of temptations, we can't really control our desires to buy things. Women chase after jewelleries, branded bags, clothes ; Guys chase after girls(XD), highly-paid jobs, cars, house, good looks for themselves. Here, I thought of another common & famous idea---5Cs' ( Career, Condo, Car, Credit Card, Cxx)..haha..I forgot the last one. LOL. All in all, money is essential. XD

A Great Mistake

Now I found out that it's my big mistake that I confessed to him. I should not do this to scare him away. Now, the ending that I must accept that is I lost a friend. Nothing that can invert the whole scene. Sad......X(

Adding credit to Natalie Tham

Today, I just went to Popular Bookstore to buy foreign language books. I had one language that I would like to learn in my mind---- Italian. Why Italian? The reason is that Milan, the city which fashion are originated in Italy. Thus, if I had managed this extra language, it will automatically add marks to our own, communicate with others easily. :). By the way, learning foreign languages at a younger age is a credit actually. There's no such thing that learning extra something is just for fashion industry, it is truly widely open for every industries, not beyond age, occupation etc. This is what we usually said Life-Long Learning.